the ugly truth

okay, within minutes,

I realize one ugly truth of humans. Selfishness. Is not like i am not selfish. yes, i am. i admit. but just now i actually realize one's selfishness can actually cause a great deal of hurt to others. So the bottomline is, yes, is normal to be selfish and u can be selfish all you want, but.. take some time to look back, what have you to done in the process and who have u hurt in the process.

so now it totally knock me to my senses, i am all alone in that place, no one's there to help me when i fall.

all i have.. is myself..

stay strong..

looking back.. so karma and retribution, how truth can it be?

Family ♥

Celebrated my brother's birthday days back! HAPPY 23 BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER!

*gosh, he will never sees this* hopes he find a da sao for me soon! and hopes that da sao demand a pet dog from him and he will buy it and we can have a dog in our house! *ahhhh, my wishful thinking*

we celebrated with him together with relatives at some hotel buffet dinner~ the food not too bad but choice kinda limited! Lots of family shot taken! but lazy to upload ~ next time ba! i realise i never take photos with my family that frequently! hence i will treasure the existing shots a lot!

SO.. WE HAVE COME TO THE LAST WEEK OF YOG BREAK! have you people been studying? THE ANSWER IS NO FOR TAN TING AND XU RONG! hahah! =X

i have not been studying too often as well -____- reasons being going out and slacking too frequently! so this one last week will be mugging time for me!! =D

and and and~ now is falling sick season! due to the weather i guess! Take care and get well soon eh! if not go see doctor! U CANT ALWAYS RELY ON UR OWN IMMUNE SYSTEM, thou i learn it as a system which is very zai but still it will fail one. YES, I AM REFERRING TO YOU! TIMOTHY! take care yea? =D

SAME THING GOES TO XURONG -____- din noe u so weak one. nv m, u gt wang cai comfort you~ And do rmb to study yea? =D

okok, one last chapter for today waiting for me! JIA YOUS TO ALL WHO IS MUGGING ESPECIALLY 1A/01 =D

pause to ponder

CHANGE BLOGSKIN =D I love it soooooo much =D

okok! time to stop and ponder! I was discussing 'past' with a friend.

The question is: would you rather go back to the past or enjoy the present and look forward to the future?

My answer: Nope, I would not want to go into the past. Be it the enjoyable or sad stuff, I would not want to experience all over it again. As in, such one-time experiences are just sufficient for me. Instead, I look forward to future! As whenever I tried to look back, all I could see was just the stupid and foolish me and how much I regret over things I had or I should have done.

p/s: anyone who saw this post! do ur mind sharing ur views with me? I will be a great listening ear! =D

a very entertained day!

OKAY, i finally completed the whole liar game series by going to the cinema to watch LIAR GAME FINAL STAGE! the movie was okayyyyyy . As compared to the drama, it is slightly of lower standard. Perhaps the movie was a bit lengthy (137 mins), that's why i don't like it so much.

and thanks ppl like tan ting, wen qiang and king chi to watch the drama(20 epis! ), read the manga (countless page! ) and read up on wiki(very lengthy info!) respectively so that they will know what's happening during the final stage - GARDEN OF EDEN.

i hope u guys namely, wen qiang, victor, xu rong, king chi, ziyi, rui xiang, tan ting, jie ying and wei jie *in order of the sitting arrangement, LOL* enjoyed the movie!!

after that all of us got really obsess with the movie! we started to have role play and keep playing with the storyline! jie ying's joke of hiding the apples. king chi said victor look like akiyama and the white hair; green eye guy! FUNNY TTM!

'Deception is the name of the game' - LIAR GAME FINAL STAGE

okay, right next will be the joke of the day -_______- we went to watch a not-so-fantastic concert == i am soooooooooo entertained by rui xiang joke of ling ling and bling bling, DAMN FUNNY. ermm, was some kind of inside jokes!

ytd was fri the 13 plus 7th month! SOMEONE WHO KEEP SCARING ME. FUNNY AH? SMILE SOMEMORE LA. GRADUATE FROM SMILING SCHOOL AH? *it is obvious who was that*

motivation to study! please keep following me! i just lose you every now and then! -___-

none other than random!

Finding a suitable skin is sooooooooooo troublesome! Should do it some other days!

Looking forward to thurs: SHF volunteer briefing with rachelle and shaun

fri : concert at SCH with those same old peeps ! =D

with love..

Feel to blog is here again! First thing first, fabulous dinner outing yesterday! it was planned as wen qiang, xu rong and my parents are all overseas! going different places though! so we decided to meet for dinner! meet up with xu rong and cheng ying at earlier! Agenda: to entertain xu rong! had a very leaky ice cream but taste good! THEY SAID I AM A DIRTY EATER! ROARRR. but i must admit! opps =X

slack around for time to pass!

in the end, when we reached bishan mrt

cheng ying: not bad, we are only late for 15 mins

*the rest were even later*

BUT THANKS RUI XIANG AND TANTING WHO NEVER FAIL TO TURN UP ON TIME

u guys deserve a special round of applause, so special rights are given to ur to be late next time!

wait up for everyone to come! so people there were: me, tan ting, xu rong, cheng ying, wen qiang, victor, chu hui, jian siong and rui xiang!

bought subway and went up to some open space! played truth or dare, is a very memorable night to all. erm.. yupp. if ur get wad i mean !

king chi joined us after that! laughters come with him when we started LOL-ing . fun and lame games played~

but time flies when we are having fun! so it's time to say bye bye! took some group pics before we left! CHU HUI STILL HAVENT UPLOAD PICS ahh!!

We are meeting up again on FRIDAY THE 13 to watch CCHM co concert! erm.. a day when we all anticipated for some reasons or so..

they nv fail to make my day feel with laughters..

totally loved by me =D

CHEERS AND HAPPY YOG HOLIDAYS =D

我很想爱他  但是眼睛在说谎  隐瞒比较容易吧  免得感情变得复杂  我很想爱他  但是理智在吵架  退出可以解围吗  谁能给我一个好的回答 

It's been so long ..

erm.. okay. not really long but yea! the feeling of blogging is here already! Okay, busy week coming. so what's up!

Tue-b. immunology extra lesson 8 to 10am , followed by ELISA viva *woohoo, so high!* LOL X=

Wed- 3.40 pm rotaract subcomm interview (might change it to wed), my beloved SPCO practice 6.30 to 9.30pm (most probably will skip) SORRY TAN TING =/

Thurs- nth much, but will prepare for CRS presentation and biochem, will confrim plus chop skip plucked string sectional =X

fri - biochem test! 50 MCQs! CRS discussion cafe

AND THEN THE LONG AWAITED YOG BREAK! 3 WEEK LEHHH. best time to rest, STUDY and sort out something on my mind. OF COURSE, NOT FORGETTING CO OUTINGS! and meet up with friends every now and then. LIAR GAME THE FINAL STAGE, HERE I COME! AKIYAMA, U ARE THE BEST =D

thanks to jia jia who bought saboteur to SPCO and king chi for teaching us! we now are addicted to this great game, but I kinda fail in it, cause my expression will just betray me -_______-

so i become the saboteur of the saboteur! like so cool please!

so many fabulous things just happened in my life, most of it are because of the great friends in SPCO! WE ROX MAN =D

SPCO black day, is the day we enjoyed ourselves ttm! or rather i look forward to every wed practice! and go home trip with the lame batch of guys! they never fail to make me laugh! =D

okok, stop procrastinating. cytokines essay consider done? 680+/ 1000 words

maths tutorial, TO HELL WITH YOU LA. HAIS

p/s: okay, a friend was right.

CO outing again! the 气 club !

YO PPL =D ytd 10/07/10 was the 'qi' club outing! We are established on the 7/7/10 as inspired by Miss Ong Chu Hui as she said everyone was 不讲义气。So we want to form a 'qi' club!

members are:

Chu Hui- 生气

Qi Xin- 义气

Tan Ting-运气

King Chi-武器

Chris-

Xu Rong -小气

Wei Xiang- 乐器

Wei Jie-

Cheng Ying-机器

Wen Qiang-

Chu Hui's friend-空气

Jason-

*did i miss anyone out?*

i forget some of our 'qi' name! is okayyyyyyyyyyy =D

so we decided to go out ytd to be accompany chris to be tour guide for his sister's china exchange friends. but it turn out quite..... not so success! but is okayy too! not everyone was here! there's only me, tan ting, chu hui, king chi, chu hui, jian siong and xu rong + yi shan came to meet up after that!

LOOK FORWARD TO MORE EXCITING EPIS OF SPCO TV:

HIGHLIGHTS INCLUDE :

- SPCO TV food review feat wan ton noodles and just acia (how to pronounce it? LOL)

- king chi's theory of eating tom yam

- jian xiong's 2.4 run as he was eating

-SPCO TV SPECIAL TALK SHOW: what are king chi, wen qiang and jian siong ideal girl!

-EXTREME QNS, faces are censored!

I AM BACK!

Okay, I am coming back to blog out of total random and bored-ness. A NEW CHANGE IN URL. thou you cant find a single penguin in my blog -_____-

Life have been great.. erm.. okay. not so great so far. At least I survive half a term already! NOTE: MY COURSE IS NOT RECOMMENDED TO THOSE WHO DON'T LIKE TO STUDY AND MEMORIZE THINGS OR DO NOT HAVE A GREAT PASSION FOR SCIENCE. If those who suits the above requirement and insist on coming, GOOD LUCK TO UR'ALL OKAY? =D

I found my love and passion for poly already! IT IS NONE OTHER THAN SPCO! *cheers!!!*
the people there are really comfortable to be with! thou i dislike the practice ttm! and SPCO TV ! fun ttm!

p/s: oh yea, something sad and emo happened. been wanting to thrash it out with you. but i just cant find the suitable chance and atmosphere. I don't want things to be stuck at the grey area. In my world, is either black or white. If you don't want to move forward, please take a few steps back from me. is that okay with you? =/

Braced :)

BLOO! Cute =D

*erm, i cant move this pic down, so it has to be up. LOL =X*

Well, got my braces on Sun. It's been the third day living with braces alr . What I can say is , I think the worst physical feeling in this world *at least to me* is the food getting struck in between the metal thing X.X It is freaking uncomfortable and disgusting. I am having my meals at home, imagine having a meal outside.. && no chocolates or sticky sweets for me. As I will have a hard time getting them out of my braces.

randoms:

I found my love of the month! and he is T.O.P from BIG BANG! He has a really crack and man voice. <3

cool effects =D
his ads for ice cream 2

super random stuff ..

Q!i xin says:

*den u camp @ the penguins area

- TîMõŢħŸ "Hilbert's 23 Problems - We Must Know. We Will Know." says:

*NICE

Q!i xin says:

*u help me take lots of pics

*and if possible , carry 1 back for me

*LOL =X

- TîMõŢħŸ "Hilbert's 23 Problems - We Must Know. We Will Know." says:

*LOL

*OMGosh

*You made me

*Really LOL

*At your

*and if possible

*=x

Q!i xin says:

*den u carry 1 more lo

*made it 2

*LOL =X

*u must prepare hao

*the cold storage =X as in not the supermarket

*LOL X=

- TîMõŢħŸ "Hilbert's 23 Problems - We Must Know. We Will Know." says:

*LOL

*I know eh

*I will prepare 1

*Lorry

*With freezer 1

*=x

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p/s: i dunno wad to p/s at the moment. thou i thought of it every night b4 i went to sleep =X

painkiller is my best friend and work craze :)

As told by my title, painkiller is my closest and dearest friend now as my gum hurts a lot after extracting 4 adult teeth. This is done to ensure sufficient space for movement of my teeth when doing braces =D It is suffering but for a better future, i will bear with it! =) and my food will be standard and that is porridge! >< so ="(

my usual lunch/dinner/breakfast for the month =X

2 extracted teeth , *another 2 did not take pics of them*

anyway, work for 3 days with rinna and dee jin. Every day went well. Just that we got bored by our work and start taking photos. The funny thing is people walked fast when we were about to snap a shot. So outcome is not quite impressive =x

dee jin's 'pro' way of snapping a shot. 1/2 of my face is gone. LOL X=

2nd try. LOL it got more worse =X

different views and angles of my sitting place and pics of very thick files and folder x.x

randoms during lunch time and after work.

another thing is gt my enrollment package! but it is very frustrating with a lot of document to handle X.X

p/s: click on the image to enlarge.

p.p/s: it hurts, it still does.

Cny @ msia :)

had a really quiet cny, relatives not free, migrated etc etc. This year , there is not much festive atmosphere. so 1 word to summarise, BORING ><

from chu er to chu si , we went to Malaysia , Ipoh followed by Penang, back to Ipoh and then Malacca. This trip is quite fruitful as I slept a lot through out the journey =D

so my Zg still loves me alot despite I owned his hates SB, TCC and CB. *I bet he doesn't like lipton too* LOL

^^V

p/s: more than 365 days, I never stop thinking of it.

p/p/s: i dropped my lappy charger on my toes 1 hr ago, it is freaking pain.

p.p/p/s: i dropped my lappy charger AGAIN, but it did not land on my toes =D

You make wanna...

I am so obsessed by my blog song now! the melody just keep going on in my mind!

u make me wanna fall

u make me wanna surrender my soul~

and u make me wanna give up *added by myself. LOLOL =X*

anw! went out w/ t3io, brant, hiro and 1 of his friend. went nyp first. their campus is way better den my future sch x.x ahh? regret? no way man! LOL

and we met the *ex-anderson chio bu* in amk hub she is sooo cute duh. keep O.O at us! went lunch, walk ard and i bought something =D it is not in the moment of folly, i asked for advise ok !

and we found out smt super wow! we met jeff's friend who turned out to be hiro's little cousin sister! Fate huh , jeff? *winks

you are the first thing and last thing on my mind .

yawn~

erm.. here i am with nth in mind of what to update x.x

hmm , let's start w/ the 10 yrs anni concert ! =D

it is a concert enjoyed by all i can say! It is simply fab w/ the perfect lightings and sound system! meet up w/ alot of friends and teachers. it really do bring back memories. but .. all teachers will only ask the same qns. 'what jc are you going?' and then i will be stun there while christine is able to ans proudly , 'AJ' . LOL =X oh wells .. but i will nv regret my choice =D It is my interest, i will be doing what i like , *i guess* =| and yea, thanks brant for chauffeuring us around! his driving skill is great huh despite he was sick! and wad a shame. no 1 brought their cam and my phone w/ a reasonable amount of mega-pixel went for repair x.x so no pics taken .

我的泪流在心里，学会放弃。

杨丞琳， 雨爱

ytd wasnt a day worth mentioning , work as promoter.

Those promoter aunties there are simply atrocious, except for 1. Only 5 dollars cash, they see it as $500 and yelling at us in their super uncivilized way. I gt scolded for helping a blind auntie around as i left the booth? yea. simply WT_ . was super unhappy but yea. Its okay. They are just profit-driven TYPICAL SG AUNTIES. Oh wells, what can i say or expected more from them? Working for them again is a super big NO from me.

wad a torture to my ears ytd ><

it's like insomnia ahhh~

ahhh, look at the time now. It is 3.25am and i am still awake! reason being insomnia misses me too much and decided to come back for me after some time! another reason being i cant get THAT THING out of my mind =/

ahh, just what's wrong with me x.x

finally, S98

haha! i guess i finally could strike off this off my wishlist which i put it on my blog since sec 3 =D i received my sms from moe @ 6.19am. while i was finally falling asleep, my phone rang.

MOE: NG QI XIN, you are posted to S'PORE POLY, BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE(S98) under JAE 2010

woooooohooooooo. i stayed awake till 9am after that . Went for my dentist appointment! decided to make braces (after so long). Gt the mould of the teeth done. Followed by X-ray in Orchard , Paragon. Lunched w/ my mum and homed after that =D

ytd.

went bag-hunting w/ chris and jeff. but nothing catch our eyes. vincent , the casualty of food-poisoning came after that. He is so emo =X haha! went bak to EVG to get tickets. but it was sold out! Thanks alot to Samuel who is willing to exchange ticket w/ us=D

and chris gt a new name : (sbs)^2 C.osy =)

nice name, seem like some funny formula.

have you moved out? please tell me that it is so. =/

outings =D

went out ytd w/ sotong bestie and dee jin to watch Jump, tiao chu qu @amk hub. I think it is really nice as it told us to be brave and live our dreams. The dance moves are super cool too! Really thumbsup. However , the cinema was really empty and freaky =/

our ticket

went mos for lunch after that. Food there was super nice too =D and tats an ah-piao sitting opposite of me and dee jin. scary! =X mr lim came after that all the way from dover and the only thing he did is go w/ us to ulu ulu popular to get chris A-lvl maths ref book. Ps duh =x

lunch

ah-piao =X

my scrimp burger

deejin's fish burger

today~

went out w/ my mum to shopping! my harvest was great =D

and gt my 10 yrs tickets